MOVED !

When a leader of an organisation steps down, the people of the same organisation means nothing at all.
I don't care how cheesy that sounds but what I'm trying to say is that I'm not gonna be blogging anymore. Not here, at least. I'm working on my own new... eh... blog x)

So feel free to remove this blog from your links.
That's okay, right, Luce?
xD

Oh well.

I'll let you know when I'm done fixing up my blog. Or when I need help on it xD

Tira

Lus will not be blogging here anymore. :)

I feel like no one knows the inner me. No one ever comes up to me and ask if anything's wrong. How come I always have to tell to get you to listen to my feelings? I thought you'd understand me so well to come up and ask what's wrong even if I never told you anything. How come this always happens to me? How come I never have anyone to just spread out everything I want to say and just always be there for me? How come I'm always the one crying my heart out and no one really cares? How come??

I can't say anything, I have no words left.
My throat is feeling plunged as if all my emotions are left buried underneath, I can't cry because it's all covered.
This pain I've never felt.
I am sad.

Just.. don't bother saying anything anymore.
You don't care anyway.
Nobody does.



Lus

I think I hate my computer. It takes me about thirty minutes to get here. Mm.

I hate it when he doesn't reply my miss-calls. Aah...

I just realised;
sometimes what annoys us doesn't disturb us (like studying) and what disturbs us doesn't annoy us (like... our phones... ?)
xD

Ahahah.
I feel weird.

-- On the phone --
Tira: I hate my ex. I'm gonna hit my head now.
Arif: Don't. Don't do it.
Tira: Okay...
Arif: You know you could get into a coma! Or get an amnesia. And if you get an amnesia, you... may not remember me... And if you forget about me... we won't see each other again.
Tira: You can just show me my phone.
Arif: What if your phone is broken?
Tira: Umm... Friendster? You can show me my profile.
Arif: I doubt that'd be believable.
Tira: Oh... Ah! My diary!
Arif: Oh yeah... Your diary... That's a good one!

It's so cold, my hands're drying up.

Tira

I'm still against school.

There's not much I can do, but I sucked in my pmb. You know, I just realised that I worked very hard for every exam this year except for the last one. Just like everything else I've done, it's stupid. Harmy did warn me, I guess.

Tira

I suddenly feel so upset. It's as if all those emotions just showered on me within a blink of an eye. All my past, all those depressing memories. Everything. Words just can't explain this feeling.

My life is pointless, I have no goals anymore. I wish I could just tumble off a cliff and just end it there. I wish I could be just like any other ordinary girl. Simple, happy and livin' the sweet life. This sucks.

"sigh"




Lus

Heheh. I'm sitting in front of the tv. Star World is showing Heroes. Hahah. There was this small conversation between Parkman and this African dude.
"You're from America," the dude said.
"Yes," said Parkman.
"You know Britnew Spears?"

Ahahah. I just find that hilarious. Wth, man.

Outside my house, there're like two tents... ? No, there ain't no circus, people. One of neighbour my neighbours is getting married is all. Mmm... wedding...
Stop it, Tira. Daydreaming has its limits. Stop it.

Tira

Oh, I just realised. Again.
Arif's older sister teaches my cousin!
Wow.
She's an MS teacher...
Wow.
Wouldn't it be weird if, like, I studied there and she teaches me and...
That'd be pretty awkward *twitches*
... "'Cher! I'm dating your brother!"
(0.0)
*shudders*
But my cousin can go, like, "Dude, my cousin's dating your brother."
xD

*sighs*
Guys are asses. Girls just fall for them.

Anyway, happy third monthly anniversary, Arif. I know things've been running havoc in your mind. Sayang, we come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Tira
In hopes that the love between Arif and I continues to grow stronger and eternal.

I dedicate Miley's "Seven Things" to Arif.
Well... eighty percent of it... ?

I went to school today to return the textbooks.
Talked to Jeer in the afternoon on the phone.
Really, yesterday was beyond awesome. Should take some time to write it down in my diary.

Tira

I'm sorry I didn't reply your message again, Luce. Anyway, it's really cool to have what you just got x3

The day was beyond awesome.

Woke up at seven-twenty-one and was sent to Rai's after breakfast. The gorilla had tuition and my parents were attending a function at the Empire Hotel. Rai and I left with Dayat for Zee's house to fetch her and Fatin. Then we went to Excapade. Not much of a surprise, kaka was there. She had her own group, which included Jeer. Arif was just missing.

We settled in one of those small rooms. When I called Arif to check on him, he sounded a bit angry and was still at home. We took about fifteen minutes to order. Then the rest of the girls decided to go to the toilet. So I was left with Dayat. My order came and as I snapped my chopsticks in two, I remembered that was how it was when I first met him; having kani maki, iced Milo, struggling with the chopsticks. Except, he wasn't there.

As hard as I tried to blink my tears away, they shed anyway. I felt so ridiculous; crying in front of Rai's crush. I don't know if he noticed, though. It was a good thing he didn't panic if he did. I stared at my phone, sighed and sipped my drink over and over for about thirty minutes. Then he called.

"Where are you?" he asked.
"Wh-What? Excapade... ?"
"Where?"
"Well where are you?" I asked him.
"Here", he said.
"Um... okay, okay, I'm going out."

I rushed out of the room, wiping my tears. And I found him standing not too far away from me along the hallway.

"Okay, Rif, turn around," I said to the phone. We walked back to our table without him realising my slightly swollen eyes.
Thank God.

And it turned out the girls didn't actually go to the toilet. They went to buy a cake. Well, a cupcake at that but there was an edible teddy bear on it x3 Awwww... I really gotta get Rai something.

So afer that we walked to The Mall and to the Cineplex to buy tickets to see the movie "The Coffin". Thinking that I was going home at three, I didn't book a seat for me. And that was when kaka suddenly hugged me. And hit my head. Maybe it was me, but Arif was glaring.
Psht. Yeah, it was me.

Then we went to the Arcade.

Rai: Rau, you share a K-Box with Arif.
Tira: Ah-- What?! Isn't that illegal?!
Rai: Come on. This could be your only chance.
Tira: Rai!
Rai: Don't worry, we'll keep an eye on you. We can see you from here.
Tira: Psht, yeah. And so can everyone else!

Then she decided to accompany with Dayat. My Gosh, that box is the only place I can actually feel my heart thumping against my chest. Argh, loud music, man.

Then Amin came. I mean, some other guy named Amin came. Zee hooked him and Rai up. He doesn't seem bad. Then we made our way to the... Cheezebox? Kaka and Jeer soon came along.

Tira: Kaka, this is Arif.
Kaka: Yeah, I know! I saw his pictures and his video! I know!
Arif: *looks at me*
Kaka: Rif, she said my brother looks like you!
Arif: (0.0)?!
Tira: He does!

My dad then called to tell me that he'd pick me up around four. Just enough time to watch a movie.

After finishing their desserts, we went back to Cineplex. But it was too late for me to book another seat for me. Fortunately, Amin gave up his ticket because he had other friends hanging around. Arif was so grateful, he looked at Amin for a while and almost hugged him xD How adorable.

It was a horror movie. But the viewers behind us made it so hilarious, man.

Sitting with Arif... ? Well... what happened then is just something I should bring to my grave.

Tira

A few random stupid questions;

- Does anyone care what the words "is", "the" and "and" mean?

- Would the examiners accept your answers if you answered your Math paper in words?
Example:

2 + 2

Ans: Four.

Hahah.

I love Arif.

Tira

Went out to search for a new phone. I'm getting it tomorrow, perhaps. After that, went out to have dinner with the family. Something strange but funny happened though.

Mum and I grabbed a seat at one of the tables in the restaurant. When we took our seats, a stranger and her child took a seat at our table too. I was like, "uhh, okay." Was kinda awkward, but I kept laughing. Then the woman kept staring at me, and I stopped laughing. lol then she ordered a drink for her kid, and sat there until her child finished the drink, while she munched on some goodies. I couldn't help but laugh again after that. I just thought it was hilarous.

After about fifteen minutes, she left.

When she left, I burst out laughing like I've never laughed before. Then dad was like,

"there's nothing strange about that, it's actually quite common."
Me : "how come?"
Dad :"when you have no place to sit, that's what you have to do."
Me : "but there's so many other seats around us."
Dad : "donno, maybe cos it's nearer."
Me : "swt. -.-"

I told Jee and Wee about it, but they weren't suprised. -.-


Anyway, I'm off.
Kinda feel feverish.


Lus

My computer is lagging and Arif's connection is... well... stupid. What? You haven't forgotten I have horrible vocabulary, have you?

What does "no monkey business" mean?
A. "Don't call me a monkey."
B. The burglar doesn't want to take Aishah to the zoo.
C. ... [forgot this one]
D. No tricks.

God, that was the first time I laughed in front of an exam paper. Hahah.

-- During Rai's open house --
Arif: *comes to sit next to me*
Tira: *still trembling*
Arif: Are you okay?
Tira: Yeah, yeah, I'm okay.
Arif: You're really shy.
Tira: You think?
Arif: Yeah, you're really shy. You're not looking at me xD
Tira: *staring at Dayat's sock* (0.0)

--

Tira: *slides his phone repeatedly*
Rai: Um... Rif? She's gonna break your phone...
Arif: So? I can just buy a new one.
Rai: Fine!

--

Arif: Whose house is this? *points to Rai's neighbour*
Rai: That's *censored*'s.
Arif: Oh.
Rai: It's big, isn't it?!
Arif: *looks at the house*
Rai: ... *mutters* : Just because his (Arif's) house is bigger.
Tira: Hahah!

The way Arif treats other people suprises me. It's as if I've never seen a guy so cold to a girl xD

Tira

I told Rai we look like the Cullens from Twilight xD

Left to right:

Rai, Dayat, Me, Arif.

Picture by: Fau.








Yes, Tira, what is it with the stupid face?

Heheh... Arif in red. That's one dream checked xD












Commerce students are still studying now xD

Once again, I've forgotten everything I was putting down here. Maybe I do have short term memory loss.

So. The story behind the pictures?

I didn't go to Arif's. That was Rai's open house x)

*sighs* Yeah.

Tira

I just went through some blogs, and got inspired to write again.


I'm finally flu no more but my eyes still feel sore. I keep blinking every two seconds. Normally I don't. Like I blink every ten seconds or so. Haha I know it's strange, but that's how I am. Anyway, I felt really sick this morning. I kept sneezing and sniffing during the exam. Was like the only one. Then like, was doing my usual sniffing, until I accidentally snorted. It was an accident, man. And I swear I heard the person behind me giggling away. Then I just acted like it wasn't me. lol total embarassment, man. Good thing it was my last day.

Gonna be out with the girls tomorrow. We've planned to ride bumper cars and roller skate. Hey, we're still kids. haha =)

I'm getting sleepy,
off I go.


Nights.

Lus

Sup, dudes ! I'm buuckkk. =D

After about three or more months of not blogging, I'm finally back. Damn, I suddenly forgot how to blog. LOL anyway, yesterday was the last day of PMR. After months and weeks of preparation, stress and tension. It's finally over. Somehow, I have this feeling of "omg-I-have-to-study-later-for-PMR-after-watching-my-favourite-Taiwan-drama" every now and then. It's already like a habit throughout the year. I can't believe it's over ! :D

And next year, I won't have to wear that butcher's uniform, I'm gonna be naked ! :D ahahaha, nah. Just without pinafore. And I'm gonna be a senior. Whhooo, awesome. The only sucky part is that we're moved to a higher floor. Fourth floor, dude. It's gonna be a tough one. =/

I'm downloading some games to kill time, for the time being.
So toodles!


Lus

Last night...
Tira: Mum, who's inviting us tomorrow?
Mum: I don't know... Why??
Tira: *grins* ...
Mum: ... As long as it's not a boyfriend somewhere.
Tira: Never mind then.
Mum: I knew something was cooking up.
Tira: He's inviting us...
Mum: ... I'll think about it. I'll sleep on it.

Anyway, she just told me she doesn't wanna go...
Arif may be angry at me. Or just disappointed. Or just busy. Yeah.

School starts again tomorrow... Pmb is you'll-know-how-many-days-if-you-count.

We're going out.

Tira

Selamat Ari Raya, everyone and maaf zahir and batin =)

Alright, so what's zahir and batin?
Ummm... I think it means inside and outside... ? xD
I'm not sure myself, man.

My open house was this morning. Then we went to Rimba for my great grandmum, then to Belait for my Malaysian grandmum and half Malaysian... folks.

Today I'm wearing green with a mix of blue. Or... maybe it's just green. Hm.

Arif's wearing brown xD x3
He's spending the whole day in Belait.

Tira

Ps. I'm sorry I can't reply your message, Luce. I lose four dollars everyday now, it seems.