I suddenly feel so upset. It's as if all those emotions just showered on me within a blink of an eye. All my past, all those depressing memories. Everything. Words just can't explain this feeling.

My life is pointless, I have no goals anymore. I wish I could just tumble off a cliff and just end it there. I wish I could be just like any other ordinary girl. Simple, happy and livin' the sweet life. This sucks.

"sigh"




Lus

Heheh. I'm sitting in front of the tv. Star World is showing Heroes. Hahah. There was this small conversation between Parkman and this African dude.
"You're from America," the dude said.
"Yes," said Parkman.
"You know Britnew Spears?"

Ahahah. I just find that hilarious. Wth, man.

Outside my house, there're like two tents... ? No, there ain't no circus, people. One of neighbour my neighbours is getting married is all. Mmm... wedding...
Stop it, Tira. Daydreaming has its limits. Stop it.

Tira

Oh, I just realised. Again.
Arif's older sister teaches my cousin!
Wow.
She's an MS teacher...
Wow.
Wouldn't it be weird if, like, I studied there and she teaches me and...
That'd be pretty awkward *twitches*
... "'Cher! I'm dating your brother!"
(0.0)
*shudders*
But my cousin can go, like, "Dude, my cousin's dating your brother."
xD

*sighs*
Guys are asses. Girls just fall for them.

Anyway, happy third monthly anniversary, Arif. I know things've been running havoc in your mind. Sayang, we come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Tira
In hopes that the love between Arif and I continues to grow stronger and eternal.

I dedicate Miley's "Seven Things" to Arif.
Well... eighty percent of it... ?

I went to school today to return the textbooks.
Talked to Jeer in the afternoon on the phone.
Really, yesterday was beyond awesome. Should take some time to write it down in my diary.

Tira

I'm sorry I didn't reply your message again, Luce. Anyway, it's really cool to have what you just got x3

The day was beyond awesome.

Woke up at seven-twenty-one and was sent to Rai's after breakfast. The gorilla had tuition and my parents were attending a function at the Empire Hotel. Rai and I left with Dayat for Zee's house to fetch her and Fatin. Then we went to Excapade. Not much of a surprise, kaka was there. She had her own group, which included Jeer. Arif was just missing.

We settled in one of those small rooms. When I called Arif to check on him, he sounded a bit angry and was still at home. We took about fifteen minutes to order. Then the rest of the girls decided to go to the toilet. So I was left with Dayat. My order came and as I snapped my chopsticks in two, I remembered that was how it was when I first met him; having kani maki, iced Milo, struggling with the chopsticks. Except, he wasn't there.

As hard as I tried to blink my tears away, they shed anyway. I felt so ridiculous; crying in front of Rai's crush. I don't know if he noticed, though. It was a good thing he didn't panic if he did. I stared at my phone, sighed and sipped my drink over and over for about thirty minutes. Then he called.

"Where are you?" he asked.
"Wh-What? Excapade... ?"
"Where?"
"Well where are you?" I asked him.
"Here", he said.
"Um... okay, okay, I'm going out."

I rushed out of the room, wiping my tears. And I found him standing not too far away from me along the hallway.

"Okay, Rif, turn around," I said to the phone. We walked back to our table without him realising my slightly swollen eyes.
Thank God.

And it turned out the girls didn't actually go to the toilet. They went to buy a cake. Well, a cupcake at that but there was an edible teddy bear on it x3 Awwww... I really gotta get Rai something.

So afer that we walked to The Mall and to the Cineplex to buy tickets to see the movie "The Coffin". Thinking that I was going home at three, I didn't book a seat for me. And that was when kaka suddenly hugged me. And hit my head. Maybe it was me, but Arif was glaring.
Psht. Yeah, it was me.

Then we went to the Arcade.

Rai: Rau, you share a K-Box with Arif.
Tira: Ah-- What?! Isn't that illegal?!
Rai: Come on. This could be your only chance.
Tira: Rai!
Rai: Don't worry, we'll keep an eye on you. We can see you from here.
Tira: Psht, yeah. And so can everyone else!

Then she decided to accompany with Dayat. My Gosh, that box is the only place I can actually feel my heart thumping against my chest. Argh, loud music, man.

Then Amin came. I mean, some other guy named Amin came. Zee hooked him and Rai up. He doesn't seem bad. Then we made our way to the... Cheezebox? Kaka and Jeer soon came along.

Tira: Kaka, this is Arif.
Kaka: Yeah, I know! I saw his pictures and his video! I know!
Arif: *looks at me*
Kaka: Rif, she said my brother looks like you!
Arif: (0.0)?!
Tira: He does!

My dad then called to tell me that he'd pick me up around four. Just enough time to watch a movie.

After finishing their desserts, we went back to Cineplex. But it was too late for me to book another seat for me. Fortunately, Amin gave up his ticket because he had other friends hanging around. Arif was so grateful, he looked at Amin for a while and almost hugged him xD How adorable.

It was a horror movie. But the viewers behind us made it so hilarious, man.

Sitting with Arif... ? Well... what happened then is just something I should bring to my grave.

Tira

A few random stupid questions;

- Does anyone care what the words "is", "the" and "and" mean?

- Would the examiners accept your answers if you answered your Math paper in words?
Example:

2 + 2

Ans: Four.

Hahah.

I love Arif.

Tira

Went out to search for a new phone. I'm getting it tomorrow, perhaps. After that, went out to have dinner with the family. Something strange but funny happened though.

Mum and I grabbed a seat at one of the tables in the restaurant. When we took our seats, a stranger and her child took a seat at our table too. I was like, "uhh, okay." Was kinda awkward, but I kept laughing. Then the woman kept staring at me, and I stopped laughing. lol then she ordered a drink for her kid, and sat there until her child finished the drink, while she munched on some goodies. I couldn't help but laugh again after that. I just thought it was hilarous.

After about fifteen minutes, she left.

When she left, I burst out laughing like I've never laughed before. Then dad was like,

"there's nothing strange about that, it's actually quite common."
Me : "how come?"
Dad :"when you have no place to sit, that's what you have to do."
Me : "but there's so many other seats around us."
Dad : "donno, maybe cos it's nearer."
Me : "swt. -.-"

I told Jee and Wee about it, but they weren't suprised. -.-


Anyway, I'm off.
Kinda feel feverish.


Lus