Maybe I'll just make this quick. I'm sleepy (not that that would help me sleep), my tummy keeps rumbling (in other words I'm really hungry), and I've got guests (if they haven't left yet). Oh and no one's talking to me.
Pmb results are out! My relative this year is kaka Aziara, my cousin. She's an MS students also, so no doubt she did very well. She did. It's just a bit sad, her mother wasn't as proud. I could have been one of them on the list due to my joining of the express class. But no, I quit at the last minute. WHY??!!
I didn't like the idea of leaving my beloved friends behind, namely kaka and Luce. I do regret this stupid reason. If you look at kaka now, she seems to have forgotten about me, in other words, she doesn't appreciate what I did. On the other hand, Luce, just moved to stupid Pinoy-- I mean, Miri.
Simply put; I left them -- not. They left me -- yes!
I'm just so mad right now. I've instantly run out of reasons to have quit. And everyone's like, "You had that chance. But noooo, you just had to quit," "Those people who stayed must have good strength to go on," and like, "Don't you regret you didn't go for it?"
Yes!! I regret!! Fine!! *sighs*... I've lost the one time opportunity to make my parents proud. And for what...? I can't find any answers to that.

If I hadn't quit, I would be lonely, but at least I'd be going to form four. Now that I have, I'm lonely and I won't be going to form four. If I hadn't quit, I would at least make my parents satisfied if not proud. Now they're bloody nagging.
And all other things, perhaps.
Basically! I'm just bad luck!!

We're bloody having a bloody family gathering picnic at a bloody beach bloody tomorrow, by the way. I bloody hate bloody times like this.
Excuse me. Sorry.

Arit