GOD! I'M FINALLY HERE!! *groans*! Stupid Internet connection! Life is hating me as usual *pasted smile* xD The Internet's gone really crappy. It's lagging much longer now and I can't access my Friendster. Very sad kan? xD And I think kaka's hating me right now. "Jyuu"'s not talking to me. I might as well fuching chuck him bloody now. Kaka has probably refused to reply my messages, if not ignore.
Yesterday, I cried harder than ever in ugama. I mean, in public. I've cried way worse than this in my room and in front of my parents. Usually I would just cry quietly kan, then yesterday I whined and wept and screamed in my class. =/ I always have the urge to scream every time I part with kaka after recess in my class. I only did it once, though. I try not to do it every time because it would make me even more psychotic. And when I did it, the girls in the class immediately turned to me as if the Incredible Hulk just came in =/ But fortunately, I'm not one to care about much and they turned away as soon as they figured out it was me. Yes, girls, it's only meee *paste patronizing smile*
I hate my life. I don't care. The poor Africans can bloody fuching have it!! Because I'd rather bloody die earlier than spend my time collecting sins for a much worse Hell to come to in the bloody end!! THEY SHOULD BE FUCHING PROUD NOT TO BE BLOODY HEART-BROKEN!! YOU HEAR ME????!!!!
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*stares sadly at the above text* *blinks tears back*
I just... typed that... Am I really that sad...?? I can't be that miserable... can I? I can't really be that miserable... I can't be... I can't be... Maybe I'm just sick... No... Kaka's really ruined my life... She started everything... Every trap and I fell for every one of them, and leaves me to get out of them alone. For what reason, I don't know. She started things that she never bothered to end properly... And I don't know what HE is up to up there. If this is karma then... I must have done something quite unforgivable... But He does give challenges from time to time... to test our patience and acceptance.
Forgive me for talking crap xD but this is a blog =/ I'm such a sad person, right? Sorry...

Arit

Sorry, Luce. You're most welcomed to delete this =/ I'm sorry.