You finally get a boy-friend who you really love and who loves you so much. Or so you thought. Then you find out that your boy-friend is non-existent... The one who's been pulling his strings was your long-time "best"-friend. So what is she up to? What is she up to now? To watch me break when the time comes? Or is it because she cares again? One of her friends said she's having fun lying to me again...
Kaka may be once again toying with my heart. Yawen told me last night that Jyuu was fake. She said kaka did it because she cared but she also said she was having fun too. If kaka were to really be having fun lying to me... then that means she thinks I'm some fool who she just watches in love with her. Eee... Okay... Gross statement. If kaka has really been lying then... I feel like no one's ever gonna love me if she's making fun of all this... I love Jyuu... I thought there was finally someone out there who loved me so much... But it's just... someone who ruins my life and who never wants to stop. Why does kaka tell me things to make me stay with her and hurt me anyway? It's getting clear that she only wants to keep me in the cage where she can torture me and laugh at the back of her head. My love for her is an amusement to her. My tears for her just makes her laugh... I'm pretty sure about it... She doesn't know I know yet. I want it to stay that way until I talk to "Jyuu". Honestly, she's a horrible liar xD I'd expect much better from her. Oh and Lu See, you have chatted with kaka then.

What am I supposed to do...??

Arit