This is a small discussion I had with Yawen and kaka during the visit to her house xD I'm doing this so Lu See would know I wouldn't be telling her the truth if I tell her this...
We were sitting at the quiet dining room, I was online with my phone... My nick was "Tira | I love you, Jyuu" or something like that. And then Lu See was online and asked me... "Jyuu?" I panicked...

Tira: Oops... Aww... (-_-);; That's right, I haven't told her yet...
Kaka: Huh?
Tira: *shows Lu See's message*
Kaka: *shakes head* Don't tell her...
Tira: But...
Kaka: Trust me; don't tell her...
Tira: *looks at Yawen*
Yawen: I know...! You tell her that you dumped him because he's gay and he has a horrible personality, and he likes cow boobies xD
Tira: (0.0)
Kaka: Ouch...
Tira: Hahah!
Yawen: Eh, it's true right? She is gay. I mean, she likes guys.
Tira: *nods* Uh-huh... Aww... mann... I can't believe I'm doing this to her...

Oh... and this is an episode in school that Lu See didn't see and probably hasn't heard... It happened on that Saturday she was in Miri... I wasn't planning to tell her this =b

I was trying to have fun with myself... while freaking out the surrounding girls in the class xD I turned to Lu See's chair and said "Uh-huh...", "I know...!" "Yeahh..." and just stared at it attentively as if someone was really talking on the chair... When I poked and pinched the invisible "Lu See", then I started to creep the girls out xD Rai kept on trying to stop me but I called her crazy instead. Erna just stared at me horrified...
'Jeer, do something!' Rai ordered.
'What? She really is there! *laughs*!' jokes Jeer.
'You're so pretty...' I said to the empty seat, ignoring the girls.
'Okay, okay!' said Jeer. 'Rau, that's enough, dude...!'
'Sing "Starlight" again?' I continued joyfully. 'Bah, bah, okay lah.'
I started to sing Starlight and Erna laughed... Rai was still trying to knock me off it.
'She's really lonely, Rai...' I heared Jeer.
Then Rai and Jeer talked about something and I stopped slowly... My joyful face turning quickly into lonely despair... I just stared at the empty chair... My face was so scared... As if something scary had just appeared there...

Please come back... I'll sing a million Starlights for you... Just stay... I'll sing... You don't have to go away...!! Just stay!! I'll sing anything...! Don't go...

My eyes started to cloud by tears... I think Mag saw it first but she wasn't sure if I was crying so she just left me. The tears rolled down my cheeks and I tried to hide it...

'Oh my God! Rau!' Rai grabs my arm.
I started to catch my breath again... I kinda have that breathing problem whenever I cry or certain times.

I'm so lonely without you... It tried hiding it, but you see, I can't... Thank you... No one's been such a friend to me these past few years... Or never have all my life... Thank you...!

Then the teacher called us to the hall. Rai invited me to come with them, but I didn't respond. I just stared at that empty seat... So I was just left there in the class all alone.

Some people are just not meant to be happy... Or maybe you just hate me so much, God...

About ten minutes later, I bumped into Alizah, poor widow, I realized then. She asked me if we were having PE today with her usual warm smile. And I told her the rest were already in the hall. And I headed slowly there.

That was a really sad moment... I'm still crying about it now... xD

=b

Arit