Mum flew to Singapore this morning... for vacation, this time. I think. =/ We would go together, but I just refused to. *gasp*...! I turned down an offer to go on a holiday and skip school for a week...! Sorry, rebels. I have my reasons. And Pinoy is one of them.
I'm getting emo again. Yesterday I talked to kaka who seemed to hate Asy already. Then just last night, man, I looked at her profile they're still deadly lovers, I tell you. And she seems to be ignoring my comments. Ahhh!! Why can't she just tell me the truth??!! And she said she loves him the most, so he must be more important to her than I am...
I will again attempt to be better than stupid Asy; by buying her eighteen dollars worth of credit. >.< style="font-weight: bold;">Plan A
I bring twenty dollars and dad drops me off at the store to buy credit. When he asks if I have the money, I'll say no and he'll hand me ten dollars. He has my fifty dollars so it'll be my own money, anyway.

Plan B
I bring eighteen dollars of my own and buy kaka's credit. When mum comes home from Singapore, I'll buy my credit then. That way, dad won't ask me why I'm buying two cards in one week. But it'll take me to save up my credit... TT.TT That means no goodnight messages to kaka. xD xD

*sighs*... I hate my stubborn self... Kaka just keeps hurting me and I refuse to leave her anyway. "I'm not giving up on her," says the voice. I'm literally torturing myself... and no one can stop me. I think she's put a spell on me or something, seriously. I know both of us would be happier without each other. I think. =/ She's got Asy... and her friends. Lately, I think I'm just a back-up friend to her. She looks so happy with them. So happy. Please help me, someone... I'm literally driving myself off the edge...

Maybe it's that she is loved too much by people around her. That's why she's taking me for granted because she's never had to feel the pain of someone leaving her... because she doesn't know how it feels.

I keep wondering if I leave her... would she feel that pain... ??
... Is she a bless in disguise or... the ultimate heartbreaker... ??
... Should I... ??


But then again, maybe if she didn't do what she did to me, if she's not doing what she's doing to me, I wouldn't be myself now...

Would I... ?

Arit