It's time I should start blogging again, looking through the number of posts Tira had written since the last of my post. I wonder if anyone wondered if I was gone for the past few days. I haven't been myself lately, not that I was wearing my t-shirt upside down or anything, no, I am, depressed.

I have just come to realize that, whenever I get depressed, I search through my phone book to find no one else to talk to. No one to tell how I feel, no one to spread my emotional feelings to, no one to tell how stressed I am, no one to tell how much I cried. I'm all left with myself, to tell all that to. I have no where to express my feelings to. No place to scream out loud. Nobody really asks how I feel, and whenever I tell someone about everything, they tell me "I think too much", "be happy", "laugh more", "it's nothing", "every thing's going to be alright", "you have to let go," . I mean, what if you were to come up to me, and tell me you just got dumped, or your crush has a crush on your best friend, or your friends abandoned you, and I tell you, "you think too much, just be happy, laugh more, every thing's going to be alright,it's time you should let go." Would you come up to me and tell me, "it's not that easy, not every thing's just said and done like that". Well, I'd tell you the same, that's how everyone treats me.

I sound selfish, but it's the truth, I have no where to express. No where to cry. You may not see me crying or be sad in front of you, that doesn't mean I'm always alright, I have a part of my soul that needs to be healed. I go to school being depress, my friends think I'm okay, I'd always laugh, but whenever I daydream suddenly, thats when I'm thinking, "Why am I like this? Why have I made myself become such a sad soul," and suddenly I get snapped by my friends asking me what I was doing, and I'd just laugh and say no, it's nothing.

So, I'm emo, whats wrong with being emo? I get pissed when people laugh at me being sad and emotional, so, whats wrong with being sad and emotional? Don't everyone? "sigh".

I am pissed, pissed at myself, pissed at every lil' mistake I made. I am, depressed, sad, and coming to an emotional breakdown. I can always be happy, just not as happy as I was before.


Lusier,26